Sitting here this morning in Nathan's room, sipping coffee and just having some quiet time with the Lord while he still snoozes. As my eyes fall on the large display of the date for the day my heart fills with emotion. Since my kids were each old enough to grasp what I was saying through November 2011 I have contacted them on the 25th of each month to 'remind' them how many more months til Christmas. Flaky I know---but I grew up with my Dad always sharing this important information with us on a daily basis :) So I suppose the 'tradition' continues.
However, as I sit here this morning and watch my son peacefully sleep that strange lump comes in my throat when I hesitantly remember that on this date last month it was with great anxiety that I watched him, not knowing if he would survive or not. I think as each month the 25th arrives I will be forever changed and challenged to fall before my Almighty Savior and thank Him for what He has done in Nathan's life and not incidentally each member of our family.
Last night as we sat and watched Nathan enjoy the Impact Team from Word of Life sing---well it would be difficult to express the joy in our hearts as we watched him feel the music and observe the satisfaction on his face. Unworthy, I suppose is what I have most often felt in recent weeks. Unworthy of the miracles that God has allowed me to watch, unworthy of His love for me. In fact reminded that I am unworthy of anything except that by the Grace of God I am richly blessed.
A couple of hours after I began this post Nathan had awakened and as I was helping him prepare for the day I was talking to him. I asked him if he knew the date today. He began to smile, I nodded and said: "Yep, just eleven months from today is Christmas!" Further I shared with him that I really wasn't sure a month ago that he would survive and how thankful I am that he did. He smiled largely and said; "God!" and gave a big thumbs up!
My kids can all be assured that they will continue to hear from me on the 25th of each month, but it will be with a new perspective!
Merry Christmas------in eleven months!
Thank you for sharing! What a beautiful example of faith. I am so inspired and challenged by the strength and faith you and your family have shown. Nathan is a miracle and God is working through that miracle to bring people into a closer walk with Him.
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